7 weeks!

I had a doctor's appointment this morning.  I saw the bean!  I saw the heartbeat!  It's a wonderful feeling.  I told my mom, grandma and my soulcyster family!

I'm so excited!

My bean is measuring 6 weeks, 3 days... but it's alive and kicking and I couldn't be happier.

The doc says EDD is June 12th, I'm going with June 8th!

6 weeks, 1 day Preggo

So I'm still feeling a bit nervous because I don't want to have a repeat miscarriage.  I'm a reserved kind of happy.  I can't wait until my first prenatal appoinment on Oct. 27th!  I want to be able to see a baby and a heartbeat.  With the other two pregnancies that never happened, because the fetuses never even really made it past the fetal pole stage.

So I have been religiously taking my meds, vitamins, progesterone suppositories and Lovenox injections... wheww! Finally, I have found a system to lessen my black and blues from my Lovenox injects and the past bruises are now clearing up (one totally gone). I'm doing all I can on my part.  The rest is up to God.

God I pray to You for a successful and healthy pregnancy!

This child will be loved!

6 week pics... not much of a change since last week and not much of a change from my regular belly... still looking slight bloated and feeling like I stuffed myself with food... even though I didn't...

Keep on dancing!!!!

5 Weeks Preggo!

So I am exactly 5 weeks pregnant today.  I have been keeping up with my Lovenox, Metformin, Progesterone suppositories and all my prenatal vitamins and folic acid.

The Lovenox is giving me little bruises on my belly as well as I get black & blues if I just bump into something.  I have to be a careful, as clumsy as I am.  I will talk to my doctor about it more when I go for my 1st prenatal appointment on Oct 27th!  I will be 8 weeks then!  Hopefully I get to hear the heartbeat then.

I have been having sore boobies and today a little bit of nausea.  But I have been tired beyond belief. It's like I cannot get enough sleep these past couple of days.  I can sleep for 16 hours in a day and still feel like I haven't had enough sleep.  Maybe I need some iron pills.  I have some, so taking a couple of day will not hurt.  They said I am slight anemic.

I so enjoy talking to my support group on http://www.soulcystes.com/ .  Those ladies on my thread are wonderful.  We all just started trying with the Metformin and so far, two of us are preggo.  I pray those other ladies get their BFPs soon too!  It would be wonderful to see all of them get it.  Imagine so many miracles in one place... truly a blessing!

Here some belly pics... I'm a fluffy cyster, so I just look a little bloated to myself, while others may look at my stomach and say... "are you 3 months preggo?"  Uhhhm no, I'm just naturally fluffy thanks to PCOS...

MY BFP!!! OMG!!!

So after only one month of religiously being on Metformin I got my BFP today on 13DPO, CD 30!!!!  I couldn't believe it.  I wasn't expecting it so soon.  So with all those fertility drugs, here I finally got my BFP with only one month of Metformin!  It's amazing!  I'm loving it!  God is amazing!  I knew You were talking to me God!  I said that in December I would be able to go back to that church in Maryland and have a testimony of pregnancy... and I will!  Thank you Lord Jesus, my Savior!  You have opened my womb like Rebecca and Hannah!  Praise be to You!  The Lord is wonderful everyone!  I proclaim it!  I believe it! And I am seeing it come to pass!

Keep on dancing!  And never give up hope... divine hope!

Day 30

Hmmm.. day 30.  Even though it's moving, I feel like it's moving slow.  It's officially the two week wait (2ww).  My watch is saying OV Day 2.  Darling husband and I had fun all day yesterday and into the early early morn, til' the break of dawn... LOL  Well, even if there is no BFP this month, we sure had fun trying.

I forgot to mention something in my last post.  Well... when I travelled to Maryland, it was for a church revival.  I felt like God spoke to me Sunday morning...  the last person who decided to testify came up... and she sang a song about fertility.  OMG!  I cried... it was to the effect of, "God, please don't let me leave this world with my hands empty.  Let me leave with fruit."  It was beautiful. She wrote it herself... there were more beautiful parts to the song, I just can't remember it all.. but it all made me cry.  I couldn't hold it in.  I thanked her later when I saw her.

The pastor's message to the congregation also included fertility and how God opens the womb when he is ready.   I'll tell you, I wasn't going to go to Maryland for that revival, but after hearing all of that I knew that I was supposed to go.  I think my BFP is coming soon!

'Til next time... keep on dancing!

Day 29...

So it's Day 29... Chart Day 16 for me and I have been dancing all weekend and then some.  LOL  My OV-Watch is now saying OV Day 1.  So I had 4 Fertile Days and now I am on OV Day 1!  Yaaay!  I kind of missed a complete day of Metformin on Saturday and on Sunday morning.  I was driving long distance already had a small bout of the toilet chacha.  I took some Immodium, but opted out of the Met just for that day until I returned Sunday night.  I resumed and I'm doing well.  No stomach upset whatsoever, no matter what I have been eating.  So I had shrimp fetuccine alfredo!  And it was gooood!  And no regrets.

I'm excited.  Well the two week wait will happen soon... and man... I hate that two week wait.  I'm going to try not to test early!

Keep on dancing!

Day 25

Hooray!  My OV-Watch is saying "Fertile Day 1!"  I know my husband is going to be happy.  I have deprived him for a few days because the fertility watch manual says that it will help concentrate the semen population... hehehe.  Well, we are on for baby dancing for the next 8 days in a row!  That should put a huge smile on his face (as well as mine)!  I carry my Metformin meds with me in my purse, just in case my dosage time shows up.  I have my Immodium close by too, just in case.   But lately, no toilet chacha.  Thank God!  My body is pretty much used to the meds now.  I even ate an ice-cream cone yesterday without any stomach upset.  Looking good!

Keep on dancing!

Day 24

I missed a dose of Metformin yesterday.  I didn't double up when the next dose came.  I didn't want to cause myself to get sick or for my blood glucose levels to become extremely low.  I hope missing the one dosage didn't make a huge difference.  It's just that I have been trying to be right on schedule with this.

I keep looking at my OV-Watch everyday, getting excited thinking to just ovulate on my own.  No fertile days as of yet.  I'm on CD 11.  I must will have a late ovulation (hopefully), because the watch is supposed to tell you four days ahead of ovulation and this is CD11.  If I was supposed to ovulate on the average CD 14, the watch would have started prompting fertile days as of CD 9.  Well none yet.

Yes, I'm impatient.  Well, I have been waiting to hold my own child in my arms for so many years; so that would explain the impatience.

Now that my mother has seen my OV-Watch, she keeps asking me did the fertile day show yet.  She also wants me to let her know as soon as I see it.  I know she's excited... but this is the exact type of pressure I wanted to steer clear of.  I wanted to enjoy this alone for a while, not for someone to know my every step.  Because a small disappointment for you becomes a huge disappointment for everyone when things like this are shared.

Well, I am going to use the OV-Watch with the Metformin for the these 3 months.  So if nothing happens, then I will visit my OB/GYN in December... that's when he advised I should actively try.  I only have 3 months worth of OV-Watch sensors anyway.  That's great for September, October and November.

For now, I will continue to battle my PCOS and wait for my miracle.

Keep on dancing.

Day 22

So, today is Day 22 of my Metformin trial.  It was a bit hard the first couple of weeks... running to the bathroom several times in an hour.  Praying that my next meal will not set off an explosion in my stomach.  All the dairy things I once loved have become my kryptonite.  So now I know how to eat with the Metformin 750mg twice daily.  I take it with meals, in between the course of the meal itself.  Eat a bit, then take the pill, then eat a bit more... that seems to work for me.  Drinking lots of water works for me too.  Carrying Immodium doesn't hurt either.... you know... just in case (smile).

I'm toting an OV-Watch on my right wrist... my family saw it yesterday.  I was trying to keep this current try all to myself.  I didn't need anyone's concerns or strenuous hopes and their dreams of a child that's not here yet.  It's a lot of pressure when you are trying.  I had been going for a while without them seeing the watch because I wear it at night when I sleep usually.  But the night before, I fell asleep without putting it on, so I had to make sure it was able to get readings from my wrist during the day.  That's how my mother spotted it right away.  She noticed it and knew what it was immediately because she was the one who told me about it when she saw it on t.v. last year.

It is like I am excited about seeing how the Metformin works on it's own with the OV-Watch.   But another part of me does not want to get too excited because of the failed trials and the unsuccessful pregnancies I have had already.   I am tired of the fertility meds.  The Clomid, the injections, the daily ultrasounds.  The IUIs.  I was able to achieve pregnancy twice before without all this madness.  So why is it so difficult now?  Maybe I am sending my body through a whirlwind with all the hormones.  So my doctor said give it a rest until December.  I stopped for like 4 months, and it's like man... I want a child already.  But I decided to just get my own hormones in proper order... that's where the Metformin comes in.  Polycystic ovaries respond to it well at the right dose and for the right amount of time.  So now I'm making sure I take it every day and on time because I want my BFP (Big Fat Positive).

Keep on dancing!

Let me introduce myself...

I was diagnosed with PCOS (PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome) at age 23, that was 9 years ago.  Since then I have been trying to have a child. After I got married 2 years ago, God blessed me with a few BFPs (Big Fat Positives... on the peepee stick), but unfortunately they ended in unexplained miscarriages.

I just started my prescription of Metformin 750mg bid (twice daily) and using an OV-Watch to pinpoint ovulation.  I eat a well-balanced diet.  I'm focusing on trying to stick to my plan while incorporating exercise.

This is my journey to another BFP that will stick and become my miracle baby.

I dedicate my blog to all the Cysters out there. No one knows our pain like we do. God bless and keep on baby dancing! (smile)