Waiting to O

So, I am waiting to ovulate.  I guess when you watch water boil, it takes it's own sweet time... same thing with O'ing!  So I've been taking my supplements like clockwork, but my Inositol started to run out and I was ont he last of it today... so the past two days I only had 1500mg, as opposed to 2000mg.  I ordered some in the mail last week, and according to shipping record, they probably will not be picked up from the shipper until today, so I'm looking at another two days.  I think I may go buy a bottle tomorrow from the store so that I can stay on top of my regimen.

I have been doing the Wii for about an hour each day.  Trying to lose some pounds.  I want a baby, but I also want to be healthy and get my body working normally.  So this is an holistic approach.  I am covering all grounds.. my overall health.  I'm working on the spiritual, the physical, the mental.  Mind, body and soul!  That's what completes us all right?

I have faith that God will do some great things for me this year!  He's already has done so much and I know He's not done yet.  I'm reaping my seeds and claiming my inheritance!  Thank you Lord. Amen!  Blessed and HIGHLY favoured!

So my fertility monitor is on day 11 and still on "Low," while my OPKs are showing a slighty faint line (also low), at least it is better than the no line result I got a couple of days ago, I guess it means something is starting to happen.  Well my right ovary is feeling like a knot is in it, hopefully it's whole bunch of eggs just ready to get released!!! Woohoo!  Yes, I am secretly ... well maybe not so secretly... praying for twins or triplets.  I know some people might say, why don't you just concentrate on one... especially because I had loss last year.  But you know, I guess I just want to have two or three and just be done with trying to conceive.  Trying and then pregnancy itself is very stressful.  But then again, I need to just have faith in my God... instead of trying to take control of things, acknowledge and KNOW that He controls everything.  It's beyond anything I or a doctor can do.  It's all Him.

Well God, I would like to have 3, yes three healthy babies!  But, I know you know what is best for me.  Please see me through safe and sound.  Get me a BFP and full-term pregnancy!  Thank you Lord.  Amen.

Start Afresh

Now that I am emotionally and spiritually equipped to continue on this journey.  Here's what I'm doing:

I started with Metformin again, but decided that maybe I need to go on a natural route becuase I want this to be a lifelong change, not meds with potential side effects that may not be great for my health.  So I researched and I looked into old things that worked for me.  So I began taking Inositol 1000mg per day (500mg day, 500mg night).  I then started to take a prenatal vitamin because that contains DHA (fish oil - omega 3s!).  I did that regimen for about a month and now I am doing the following:

Morning

Inositol 2000mg - GNC

Prenatal with DHA (OB Complete + DHA)

Baby Aspirin/Low Dose Asprin - 81 mg (great for my heart murmur and my clotting disorder)

Vitamin B6, B12, Folic Acid Complex 

• B6 - 50mg
• Folic Acid - 1000mcg
• B12 - 125mcg
• Calcium - 33mg

GNC Inositol 500

Holista B6, 12, Folic Acid

OB Complete DHA

Low Dose Asprin - 81 mg

 

Night

Soy Isoflavones - 280 mg of Isoflavones (cd 3-7 only)



Sundown Concentrated Soy Isoflavones


 

I have been doing exercise daily through my Wii game!  Go Wii!  It really makes a person work out hard!  I sweat rainstorms when I'm done!

I have also started using my Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor (from Ebay) along with bulk discount ovulation tests (from Amazon) and BBT (Basal Body Temperature) thermometer to track ovulation if and when it occurs.

So far on day 3 of the Soy Isoflavones and no side effects like I had with Clomid, so I don't know how well it's working, or could it be that my hormones are very balanced from the Inositol, so that could be the difference?  Who knows.

I hope to get pregnant soon, so that I it is times perfectly for when I graduate my RN program.  I would like to start a job and not have to take off for maternity leave because my OB/GYN said I will have to be on complete bedrest next time around.

I'm secretly (I guess not so secretly), hoping for twins or triplets even.  So that I can do one shot and not have to do pregnancy again for another child.  But I will take what God thinks is best for me.

Blessings all...

E

It's a LONG road...

It was the hardest thing ever.  I went so far in my pregnancy, felt him move and all.  I had to be on bedrest for more than a month, and still he came early.  My new little precious boy was gone in the blink of an eye.  All my hopes and dreams for him, the light dimmed on them... as I watched him stare at me, and I could do nothing to save him.  As I watched him pump his little chest, my heart went out to him, I screamed for my son.  And after it was all over, I slipped into the deepest and darkest place inside myself for a long time.  I gave up on life.  But God never gave up on me.  He brought me out of that dark place and brushed the cobwebs and dust off of me.  He guided me to restore my faith.  And in Him I have faith that all we be alright and that He always has a plan, even when we cannot see it clearly.  My goodness, doesn't Father know best?  We are just little wee kids compared to the time He has been here.  He has always been here.  We are too young to even comprehend why He conducts things the way He does.  And then we think that we can do it all without Him.  We get proud and believe we can change the world without even consulting Him.  We think that we are smarter at times, or simply that we have capabilities they we do not even have.  We are not Him, even though we are of Him.  I've learned to be humble and put all my worries with Him and to ask Him for what I want to achieve and to guide me towards the way to do it.  Just ask and you shall receive.  He promised me an inheritance, and I am looking to claim it.

God, thank You for all You do and all You continue to do in my life, even when I don't have clear understanding.  I trust that you know what is best for me and will always do things in my favor for the light of you that shines in me.  Thank You Lord, because I believe.  Amen.

Austin - b.March 3, 2010 - d. March 5, 2010